I'm blue today

I'm feeling pretty down in the dumps today.  I've been stressing out over my "episode" the last few days.  Logically, I really think it is probably just that I am way too dehydrated.  I have been drinking tons of water and resting so I'd imagine I'll be just fine.  But emotionally I'm still a wreck!  I've still been battling with being dizzy somewhat and I get wore out really easily.  Plus, I'm just so scared that I'm going to pass out again especially if I'm out somewhere.  I don't want to be away from the house for longer than 20 minutes or so.  If I do pass out again I'd really rather be here at home and not in front of strangers.  I just really wish this hadn't happened!

Another thing is the heart monitor.  The last thing in the world I want to do on my birthday is go and get a stupid heart monitor put on for 24 - 48 hours!  Yuck!  Between me worrying and stressing, I'm not even enjoying my birthday at all.  Our anniversary is the following Tuesday and I doubt if things will be cleared up by then so I'll still be stressing.  My poor husband and daughter are feeling the effects too - they are still stressed over thinking they were going to lose me plus they are watching me so closely that it must be exhausting. 

Sorry for the whining today!  I just wish this would all go away.  I don't want to be dizzy anymore and I don't want to get tired so easily.  I miss sewing!!  Plus, with my birthday on Tuesday, I want to just have fun!  Please keep on sending prayers up for me.  I'm trying really hard to have faith that God will take care of me!!

Bye,